Melancholy is back. It was on a bit of a vacation. Well, the questions of life never really leave but now that I have a bit of alone time, I decided to write about it.
A lot has been happening in my life lately. There's been a change of job, a change of location, setting of goals, a broadening of vision and a reunion with some good friends. Some things haven't changed. College still remains the benchmark with respect to quality of life. I am convinced that that benchmark will not change. I think I dont want it to change. The journey from school to gaining one year of work experience has been rough. When I think that some of my best memories from college are more than 4 years old, the mind boggles. That there are more than 30 years of professional life to go makes me want to run away to a far off land.
Now there is 5, 10 sometimes 20 year vision. Now there is formal talk and corporate suck up. There is a daily commute and a code of conduct. Back then, we didn't look beyond the next day's football session. Honestly, no one thought it would ever end. All in good time one may say and it would be correct. There is satisfaction in having gained a sense of direction but one essential question still remains. Do I want to work like a dog and achieve something real and meaningful? Or do I want to lead a life of ease and guaranteed returns? It's a matter of principle which is as yet undetermined. I read recently that workaholics are people who work to escape their dull lives. Not very different from gaming or TV addicts. I realize I'm going down that route now. I think I'll figure it out. Hopefully, its just a matter of time.
(October 2010)
1 comments:
aah .... we have grown up !!! been a long time since we played football in that brown pant and white shirt, gave birthday treats in it, took board exams, posed for photographs with an entire batch and rode TMT buses wearing that.
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